Eddie & Jenna.
W Hotel, Union Square, NYC.
Wedding Planner: Ang Weddings and Events
Dress: Monique Lhuillier
Bridesmaids Dresses: Ralph Lauren
Florist: By Yena Designs
Cake: Ron Ben-Israel
Stationary: In A Card
Guests were asked to write down something that is inspiring to them.
Everyone who came through looked absolutely fantastic! Special thanks to Marina Sandoval for operating the booth.
A Native American healer once took me through a visualization exercise. He told me to close my eyes and imagine myself in the desert. A horse approaches. He asked me to describe the horse.
I said the horse is white. He asked for more detail. Is it all white? Where is it? Is it standing close to me? Long hair or short hair? Does it have a saddle? A bit?
“No saddle, no bit. Just a white horse with long hair. It trotted up from the distance. It’s here next to me.”
After, he told me that the horse signifies my vision of a partner/lover/significant other. The healer laughed. I laughed back. Apparently I want the perfect white horse.
I’ve come to realize that no one is perfect (especially me), and in order for my white horse to show up, I have to open my heart and be truly vulnerable. To be honest I think he has shown up multiple times – a white horse with adorable flaws that I deem perfect – I just haven’t had the courage to jump on. It’s time to saddle up.
How a person seems to show up for us is intimately connected to how we choose to show up for them. – Marianne Williamson
Diana & Albert’s engagement session at Crissy Field, San Francisco.
Couldn’t help it.
I get a thought. It’s not a good one. It spirals out of control. My whole reality is based on something that isn’t even happening. I take everything personally. The whole world feels like it’s crashing down. But I want to be in control. I want the results to be a certain way. I can’t let go.
What do I do in times like this? First, I call my friends. Having a support group where you can unapologetically be yourself is like having bacon-wrapped gold. I can call them first thing in the morning and say, “I feel like I’m taking crazy pills!” They give me space to be crazy. They also know me well enough to know my patterns and get to the root of the problem quicker than I can. Sometimes it’s hard to see the picture when you’re the one in the frame.
Next, I focus on what’s in front of me. What’s in the past is in the past, what’s in the future hasn’t happened. Anything I’m thinking is not true. What’s in front of me right now? An almond croissant and my laptop. Cool. I’m blogging. I love blogging. And I love almond croissants.
Similarly, I remember to do the things that I love. I fall back in alignment when I do things like take photos or go to yoga. Take care of me first and everything else is gravy. My whole goal is to feel good because when I’m good, so is everything else.
Being pushed to the point where you can’t tolerate something anymore is a blessing. I’m sick and tired of feeling like shit! You’re pushed to the point where you’ll either go off the deep end or actually do something about it.
I work hard at being the best version of myself so that I can be better for the people in my life. One of my photographer friends called me the other day and said, “Girl, I don’t know what’s been going on but your work has been blowing me away.” As I open up more emotionally, I am producing better results in all aspects of my life.
Put your heart and soul into everything. You can’t have the good without the bad.